Mixed emotions with GRATITUDE

Like a sack of mixed Veggies....

When you hit rock bottom, you fall into pieces!

At one instant I felt my skin dislodging from my bones, that was only under a year ago...

I have been in search of my self some call it a soul searching or lost to being found path I call it a walk to SELF FINDING PATH

I have been on a self introspection journey and it worked like flue remedy, it has the greatest power to reorganize self thoughts, find oneself and most of all give life direction to self. The trick is staying on the same life trajectory, moving forward and be incontroll yet controlled by dreams and ambition.

This was self healing for me, I found my lost self.

The power of healing starts with the mind, self love with no doubts...unconditional love to self can & will make you realize the perfections on imperfections of LIFE. Self Love buries the pain, hurt and 

anger one has for oneself. Looking back I know how I have created a barrier between self and the outside world, but again I am scared I might reveal my vulnerability to the world out there. Wondered why I have my hands crossed my chest???! thats the answer right there....TO BE OPEN ARMED?????? sometimes I ask why but again to a certain individuals I am.

On shaky grounds I wonder if these certain individuals would take my rags when I put them out there and help mend them in to a perfect dress, paint a beautiful picture of my pain bring  happiness stains on the rag...I may be no good judge of character but I choose who will help me mend my rags..

The elite few have shone light to my pain and hurt and gave me a hand into mending my pain, suffering and helped me find my true purpose in LIFE. It wasnt an overnight miracle but it has taken me alot of strength and courage to change the well I thought I was doing, transpired into the Best I could ever have imagined to BE. 

I am content and happy with the person i have BEcome and to those that helped me realize self worth and to the pain and hurt that pushed me to see the verge of life - I look back and move forward with nothing less than GRATITUDE.



Inspired by: Lost &Found ,Sarah Jakes

Amazing Six months of my Life

Life's Happiest Moments

Its been a while since I last made a note and WoRd to self...

####Academic.....

Towards the dying days of 2013 I was pulling my weight....my Ass was all over the shore getting my ducks in a row heavy heartedly so. Being on the rolling seat wasnt as easy but I had to hold on through my teeth to make it through the year. I spent most of my time being a xenolith in PG GIS lan with Simz ( GOD bless that woman for me)  holding on to each other like lost souls, in constant talk with the Lord. At times I felt the great MaN upstairs had given up on the both of us but through strength and faith we kicked failure Butt and opened doors to our next phase of our Academic life.

###Then came Love 

Oh where do I start??? Meeting the apple of my eye? yes.

Its a pity I cant say his my High school Sweatheart fortunately he got me fallen... For the past years thinking I had fallen I had actually been.............. wait for it.......###DRAG### Ive been trippin inlove but now I have finally fallen inlove !!!!!  The more I give love to thee the more I  have and for both are infinitely so, like the abundances of sea (shakespear, W)

 I say we met by fate and stayed together by choice and we've been growing as lovers through an uncontrolable divine power and through determination we will be together eternally ...Can eternity be engraved on our hearts when our lips lock and eyes when we take glances of one another? Sometimes I ask what made me  Love thee but thee deserve it.. Like a drug I cant get enough of thee...his other half is mine and mine his,,,Ive held my horses for thee.(My other Half  blog post )

I wish I can dive much into the details but its still young love , without extrapolating facts .. This has been a life changing experience for me I have realised that life is what we make of it and what determines our destiny.  

WORD:  Ladies be on the lookout, if you havent found your soulmate stay put he might be knocking on your doorstep soon enough!!!

Go out and seize every moment.....