The world decided to take its winds and tall's on me, unshaken I will remain...
My scribbles to my non-existence self got caught up in a X-fire ,
washed away into the ocean.......
In the last day or two I got an epiphany of some sort,
TD Jakes talk on Burdens and Blessings. I finally arrive to a conclusive end that all that is happening in my life is a phase which will be succeeded by floodgates of Blessings.
After my findings that there's a bun in the oven, I felt my all was coming down crashing down on my feet. I didn't understand why God picked me out of a thousand flowers in the garden. Like a flower picked from a garden I though these were my dying days,,,i needed to renew my strength and pull myself together not for the goodness and good health of my soul but for the good health of my offspring s/he deserves that much from me. In that state all I could think of was how I have let myself down and failed myself. Lacking emotional support and motivation I needed answers from the almighty, may have overlooked alot of things I am grateful for. This is likely to happen when in crumbling state..
I wake up to good mornings and great days, through his Love and Mercy I see each morning and day, blessed me a few souls who acknowledge my presence and being.
All this I overlooked, not knowing my testimony of "Burdens and Blessings"
Just like a sack of potatoes in the rack....i felt so alone....Thinking how am I going to BE, survive and thrive for thy teeth too... Still need answers but he who I believeth will answer in his own time.
There are Burdens to bare before any Blessings to recieveth, As beings we never think of burdens as processes that we "FIT" for or deemed to pass through to recieve our Blessings.
Unfortunately just like how we pray for rain and not think of the mud,,,,, Had I known my Burdens would be this thorny and tangled, I would've worn heavy clothes but as bare As I Am,
I will pass through them as quick as I can possibly can, I am grateful for my Burdens are as light on my shoulders although they may fall on to the shoulders of my precursors so heavy and hardheartedly so.
I ask for renewed strentgh eachday for me and for who my other half is..
May we get renewed strength and thread the beauty in our hearts and mould what we have put together, and mend our souls into what will be as appropriate in recieving our Blessing and our custom made gift from the most high....
Zinanthi insikelelo zenkosi...
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